Life takes over

Will life ever slow down or get back to at least some sense of normal? It seems as if there are not enough hours in a day to do all I need to do and I am getting less and less sleep because of it. Taxes are a curse. I have been working for the last three weeks trying to get everything together to file all the things the IRS has to have. Even though I am OCD, it still takes me weeks to put everything together. This is an unnecessary evil that could be avoided.
It does not help anything that I have taken on a new job--a volunteer job at that-- I really do not like jobs that do not pay but that is what comes with working for your children. Please understand I did n ot ask for nor did I want this job; however, Will does not trust anyone other than me to do things the way they need to be done so add into the mix all the things I have to do for myself I am now in the car business again and seem to be at Will's call whenever he needs something. I am trying hard to find him help other than myself, you know maybe like Annacarmie. Not sure if that combination would work or not but I am to the point I am willing to try anything. I do not like doing titles.
Makenna has had an ear infection that has kept us in the house for a week. I feel we have been very blessed that she is five months old and this is the first time she has been sick at all other than a runny nose. I feel sure that is a result of allergies. All the rest of us have allergies so how could she not have them also. She is growing and learning new things every day. At four months she began rolling over on her own. Now at five months she is trying her best to crawl. She gets on her hands and knees and rocks back and forth all the time. It will not be long before she will be mobile. I am not sure how I will contain her then. She has not teeth right now but it probably will not be long. She is chewing on everything in sight and drooling all the time. Blowing raspberries is a new thing she has learned. It is so sweet to see her laying there blowing bubbles and whatever she sees.

I know now how many things I missed as my own children were growing up. I was busy working and trying to take care of them, a house, and all the others demands of a young wife and mother. I have been reminded of that with Makenna. Those other things do not seem to hold near as much importance now as they did when I was younger. I make sure to take time to play with Makenna and let other things go. As you know that is very hard for an OCD person to do, but I can do it if it means spending time with sweet baby girl, Makenna Kate.

I do not know what has happened over the last few weeks but Makenna has decided she wants to wake up two or three times during the night for a bottle. It is killing me to have to get up that much. Any one got any suggestions as to what I might do to get her to sleep through the night?
I make it ok losing sleep for a little while but when it goes on repeatedly I begin to get very irritable. That is where I am right now. Please be praying for me to not take my irritability out on those around me.

I have begun a new Bible study, Discerning the voice of God by Priscilla Shirer, that is just what I needed; however, it has not been an easy study. If you ever get a chance to hear Priscilla speak in person do not miss the opportunity. God has been calling me out of y comfort zone and to a life of greater obedience to Him as a result of this study. Yes I want to live a life of greater obedience but it is so hard to do and sometimes I just want to give up. That is not an option as I was reminded as I studied. God has a plan for each of our lives and that plan is to prosper us and to give us hope and a future (Jer 29:11) and His plan will be complete in His time not mine. That is the hardest part for me to wait on His time. Several times over the last few months I have wanted to help His plan along in my time. Each time he has stopped me in my tracks and reminded me He is in control. Thank goodness He is in control because I know I would surely make a big mess.

Do the trials ever become less severe? I guess not for me because I am sure it is those trials and the difficulties that come along with them that keep me on my knees seeking my Lord.

Stephanie and the girls are on the way to Tuscaloosa tonight in order for Taylor to compete in gymnastics. I would have loved to go but I had already committed to fill in as a teacher in a Sunday school class. Taylor loves gymnastics so much, it is her life. Tay, I pray you have a good meet. Do your best and have a good time doing it. Love, Mamma Kim


I know this has been a long post but I will try to do a better job of updating this crazy life I live.